Christmas lunch at ikea with choo yesterday haha, it seems like a long time since I posted some food picture, yao nian used to say that my blog was like some food blog. Was at ikea yesterday with choo before going to peng's house, it was raining damn heavily and I stupidly stood right at the edge of the road and got splashed by a car. Well, there's a first time for everything =) it actually reminded me of this video, and how ironic is it that choo was the one who showed it to us.



The christmas lunch gave me a terrible stomach ache up till I was leaving peng's house. Then when I got home I ate a lot of pizza and I got a stomach ache again o.o I can't resist food, grow fat grow fat omg. Actually, I realised that I lost 3kg o.o I finally weighed myself since don't know when after ng peng told me he lost 1 after I told him troy gained 5.

The whole week has been quite..uneventful, lab on monday, packing cupboard on tues, peng's house yesterday and lunch with troy today. Saturday shall be better, I have to enjoy myself now, I'm gonna be overwhelmed by lab from next week onwards, we have like 80 hours more to fulfil, apparently people do 120 hours on average. It's only through this project that I really see and experience how important your lab partners are, sure all projects are frustrating, but the right lab partners will help you pull through it, the right lab partners will be, well, friends. Somehow it doesn't feel that way now. I was quite open about making friends through nrp initially since I knew how important it was..but then it became quite..bleh.

I shall start getting my life back on track, it started with the clearing of my cupboard, kind of no link but nevermind. Nightly pt sessions shall resume, and I shall finally finally finally actually create a schedule. Monday, wednesday and friday runs shall resume, so if anyone wants to run can look for me haha, so much more than running alone, otherwise I will run at night..quiet and serene and a little spooky.

The whole copenhagen hopenhagen thing is getting kinda annoying for me, essentially, everyone is like, we have this this this plans, but we won't do it if someone else doesn't do it. Honestly, I find it very childish, remember, as kids, how we would be like, I won't say sorry if he doesn't say sorry, and the other person will ditto, so the adult has to come and say, count to 3 then say together okay? So is that what we're waiting for? For some guy to count to 3 for everyone to finally do something together? Yea, then we have to do it in a boat by then. Maybe as just a normal citizen, I'm not seeing everything, or at the political level or whatever, with all the bills to pass and everything. I understand how it'll be useless if only small groups of people do something and then everyone else continues polluting, but someone has to start right? In the end it just boils down to no one wanting to compromise. I know I've been stating the obvious here, but I just find it sad that I'm reading about stuff like this almost everyday. I admit I'm not some super green person or whatever, I guess it just reminds me of project sunshine, everyone can do something, but no one wants to do anything.

darren
I was always there for you,
But you never saw the truth

Look! Kevin is now some math pro with his own book being sold in popular.

This is post 555..I don't know what the significance is but it's just some funny number.

Just got back from sembawang with my family. It's really like a blast from the past kind of thing, it's one of the places that I grew up in. When we went out back when I was around..zero to around 5 years old, we would usually go to yishun area, which meant north point or the surrounding coffee shops, or sembawang, and the coffee shop opposite the road with the very nice curry fish head that I didn't actually eat back then because I thought it was freaky but what the coffee shop was famous for anyway.

On the coffee shop side, everything is pretty much the same, except this gigantic tree that had aerial roots hanging from it to collect water from the air..or maybe I'm just crapping and they're just vines. Sembawang shopping centre on the other hand is totally different, like totally torn down and rebuilt again. The Thai restaurant used to be in the basement kopitiam like place together with that supermarket, then it moved up to the top floor, now it's gone I think. And it's quite sad because you can say that I 吃这些东西长大的, that and the fish head coffee shop, which also had very nice 豆腐虾, but when I was young i hated 豆腐 so I will only eat the 虾.

I miss my childhood quite a lot, like, who doesn't? Okay maybe a lot of people don't. But as a child, I didn't really ask for much, and I know that my family isn't very rich too, but we're not poor though, we just don't spend that much. I think I need to be more like that now =/ and I think I have some inbuilt muggerness that probably died off as I grew older, when I was young and I had homework, I'm wondering why I have homeworking in k1 and k2, no one could get me to do anything else until I finished my work, whether it was a new playstation(yes the first one) game or to eat dinner. I guess some aspects of it are still left in me, like if I know that there's something that I have to do, I'll feel very uneasy until I get it done, which usually results in me getting that thing done first..well..most of the time.

Anyway, last night was nypco concert, we went to support ms lin who was whacking the drums as though she was whacking the cse students who refused to hand in whatever forms even after multiple reminders. The concert was quite interesting, there was one part where they used kitchen utensils and beer bottles and the conductor was dressed like a chef, and then there was one with a super long poem which made me clap to early and draw stares, so I stared at nick kee since he was next to me. Went for supper with mr sng, nick kee, yong zhi and ben tang after that at old market with the nice satay and some live band performing that was quite nice. On the way back, we jaywalked, it so happened that mr sng was wearing a green shirt so yong zhi said "don't worry we have a green man". I think that mr sng has been affected by my nonsense, when I asked him to get me a cow from macau, he told me to get him a kong from..nevermind you can guess.

I'm still quite confused about my combi..some people are saying that I should take pcme even though my interest is in bio because bio is easy to pick up..but don't you need bio if you want to do bio in uni? I'm definitely not not not going to do engineering anyway..especially after last year's project. Then there's the thing about research going out of fashion. I should just become the president or something.

My schedule for tomorrow is very fun, wake up early to collect passport, go to ntu for lab, sit in lab, lunch, lab, take super long mrt ride home and sleep along the way, hoping that I don't fall down while standing up because I fell asleep. Hopefully the rest of the week will be used wisely, good thing choo is coming back tomorrow yay!

Okay I shall sleep now to prepare for tomorrow, ya right, it's 9pm.

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My life feels kinda messy now, I'm at the no direction phase again..I need to get everything back in check. Needless to say I feel very lost right now, honestly I don't know how I'm supposed to feel with all these things happening. I need closure..it's been far too long.
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darren
It's something unpredictable,
But in the end it''s right.

This is what happens when you sit in the lab waiting for a graph to be generated, carbon nanotubes to coat onto the electrode, electrodes to finish sonicating just so that you can sonicate them again but in ethanol, or because your partner is using the only computer with internet to play bejewelled when you want to send an important email.

Another super hectic day gone by. Going to ntu for lab sessions seems to mess up the rest of my day, while I sit inside for hours, I'm hardly doing anything except waiting, but when lab is finally over I find myself scurrying everywhere. It's like the vacuum pump which sucks in and collects air before blowing you away..just that the vacuum pump in the lab wasn't working so we had to spend more time looking for a new one.

The cab ride home took 1 hour and cost 27 dollars. I was in a taxi that smelt of body odour. It didn't help that almost every single road leading up to macritchie was jammed..and there I was thinking that taking the cab would allow me to get home in time.

Lesson today was..interesting, a small kid peed on the floor in the hall..apparently he was too afraid to ask if he could go to the toilet. And I confirmed my suspiscion about someone in the class being from my batch when he came up to me and said, "were you dancing that day?" my hopes of going to tournament seem quite bleak since I'm missing grading..I'll have to keep doubling all the way if I want to make it, which is almost impossible. And I'm getting more and more rusty gah.

Just read the first part of choo's dedication to our class..somehow I never knew that he felt so strongly for our class, I never knew that anyone would feel so strongly for our class. I will honestly say that I don't know every single person well, but I can also honestly say that I can at least talk to every single person in this class, which wasn't the case for sec 1 and 2. I remember that my relationship with 1e/2e was quite terrible, partially my fault but also because of reasons that will make me seem quite..thick skinned if I mention them so I shall just keep them to myself. But then again, I'm reminded of the other day at orchard, when I saw some ex 1e/2e peeps who actually called me to say hi when they spotted me, people that I could never actually get along with back then. I know that I pretty much sacrificed my relationship with 1e/2e peeps for my part, maybe I didn't really know how to balance back then, I don't regret doing that, but of course I regret making so many unnecessary enemies.

Anyway, back to 4s4, 4s4 is really a brilliant bunch. I remember how our class was like blacklisted by almost every single teacher for being very noisy/uncooperative and everything. But despite all that, we always ranked at one of the top in terms of results. Academics aside, despite the distinct cliques in our class, everyone can still get together if need be. Though it's quite sad that I got to know quite a few of them better only towards the end or even after school has ended. Haha, but I guess the one thing I regret the most is not having done more for the class as the class rep, besides the admin stuff of course.

Classes in jc will be totally different..apart from the girls, no class will ever be the same. As much as I cherish this class, there's no doubt that we'll all be going our separate ways. I just hope that just like the p760s from 601, at least a bunch of us will still keep together, even if we're not put together by the school.

darren
Cause I know this flame isn't dying,
So nothing can stop me from trying

Haha mrs khoo with her cool hair, one of the teachers I HAD HAD HAD to take a photo with that night, she's been teaching me for all 4 years after all..and she definitely hasn't been just a teacher.

Starting to think more and more about high school life already..maybe not so much right now since we're still meeting up and stuff, but no doubt I'll be thinking more and more about it, and missing it more and more. In primary school, we were looking forward to secondary school, looking forward to the freedom, and thinking that our primary school workload was heavy enough to kill. But once you get into secondary school you miss primary school. So even though you dream about going to jc while you're in high school..when you're actually going there, it kind of becomes all different. Then again my primary school life didn't exactly have a graduation or anything, so maybe there was nothing to trigger the nostalgia, not at least till secondary school life took over.

Last two days were spent at choo's house. There's no point in typing out what we did because we were simply too random..and because I couldn't remember either. We were sifting through darren's dvd collection and on demand movies at night trying to find one to watch..we settled with 5 centimetres per second in yan yu's hard disk lol. Apart from the super good animation, it was a really good though sad story. I have a love hate relationship with movies that I can identify with. We woke up super early at around 8+ and went over to clementi, roaming around coffee shops buying a little bit of food from here and there, and that was our breakfast haha. Lunch was pizzas made with roti prata and chapati which turned out really well. And then I was back home.

There's lab at ntu tomorrow..which I'm starting to dread. I looked forward to lab sessions initially because I was really interested in the project, but having a partner that just wants to fulfil the minimum amount of hours kind of ruins everything. A lot of times, I'm sitting there wondering why I'm the one calling the shots most of the time, and yet he's one year older. Doing lab outside of school gives you access to a lot more equipment as compared to doing it in school where the labs are full at times, but at least in school you get to do lab with your friends. Though research isn't about having fun, having fun while doing research certainly helps.

I better get the letter from immigration to tell me that I can collect my passport tomorrow, otherwise I can say byebye to malaysia.

darren
It's never been easy to say
But it's easier when I've gone away

This is what alex and I got when we asked for extra whipped cream haha.

I realised that I have some unknown person following my blog o.o weird

Anyway, today is gonna be like my only busy day before I'm bored for the rest of the week. Unless of course I get to stayover at choo's house with peng, yanyu and yao nian.

First thing in the morning was bugis with jordy and joash. Went to swee lee to buy guitars with them. Okay actually that sentence is quite deceiving, they went to get new guitars, I watched and tried the guitar out for kay kay. Then there was the firebird that I can see I can touch I can try but cannot buy D= lol. The more interesting part was looking for paxton and bo shun who were working at popular in bras basah. Bo shun claimed that paxton would be very bored at the fair but he had this pretty girl for a boss(?) so I think otherwise. Bo shun on the otherhand was helping to pick out textbooks for parents and recommending econs books and ten year series to us..and not forgetting about him being very concerned about whether the popular shirt makes him look fat.

Went home for a rest before going penging with alex. We..bascially watched alex eat chicken rice that costs 6 dollars and sat at star bucks. Much better than staying at home nevertheless haha.

Then it was home again before going to the airport with ephraim to send alex, ben chin and bryan kuah off to obama's home. I think I spent more time travelling than actually staying there but nevermind haha, I kind of like walking around the streets at night..maybe it's the silence and the tranquility.

Unfortunately I had a very coincidental encounter with a certain teacher at the airport who totally reminded me about cmps and even started probing more and giving me more inside info..as for how reliable it is..it's definitely questionable. But nevertheless it doesn't really matter. The projects that were submitted were made for this competition and ours wasn't. Not saying that the other projects are just for competition, a lot of them are actually very good, stuff like killing mosquitos(lol), heavy bags(which I am a victim of o.o), lack of sleep(guilty..), and making soap out of fruit peels. Actually a group from hong kong presented a project on this during chats, quite interesting to see how different people from different countries can have similar ideas. Anyway, seeing the top team in the junior category being from my primary school made me feel proud too haha.

It's amazing how one sms could make me feel so much more at ease. I guess I was worrying too much for nothing..like I always did. Some things just have to shun qi whatever whatever, my chinese has degraded after o levels gah. Hopefully history will repeat itself again, I'm hopeful. It'll all be worth it, it will.

darren
Don't let it slip away,
Could be our only one

Finally, my two weeks of hecticness are finally over..but now begins the extreme boredom phase o.o okay not exactly, I have a lot of stuff to do like..packing my room omg, okay I'd rather be bored.

Needless to say, a lot has happened during my long period of absence, if not this blog wouldn't be so dead. So weird, I don't post when I have nothing to post about, and yet when a lot of stuff happens I can't post as well.

This week was pretty much cmps and commencement dinner. Alex, ephraim and I pretty much met up almost everyday this week to rehearse for the dance. Commencement dinner was not really sad but more of fun, I guess we pretty much know that we'll still see each other in the next two years to come. But whether it still feels the same whenever we see each other is a completely different matter..but there's no doubt that things will definitely change. Performance was..good I guess haha, it was a whole lot of fun =) and I think that it was shocking for most people to see ephraim and I up there. Haha this makes it all the more memorable. After the dinner I became alex's photographer..then the council's, imagine carrying 5 cameras around. Went over to yongle's house to stayover for cmps, it's quite interesting to take pictures with a dog.

Cmps was..really bittersweet. top 2 teams get to go to US for international competition, we got 3rd haha. For one, we got one of the biggest assurance that what we were doing was good and the right thing from the judges, but just as we had thought we weren't meant for this competition. Most if not all of the projects were made for this competition alone, we had to package ours to fit into it..which would definitely leave some loopholes here and there. Nevertheless, the whole day with mozzie group was really fun, despite the whole saga in the late afternoon. Congrats to troy, choo, kevin and wei xiang =) of course, project sunshine isn't going to stop here.

My tribute post shall come a little later. Right now I'm looking forward to p760s(without yee shing D=) gathering later, lunch tomorrow and hopefully malaysia with choo next week.

darren
Time, is going by,
So much faster than I

A person good at making good food..and tools.

Perhaps the most fulfilling/relieving part of the week was end of o levels, even though it's only one paper. Though the whole thing was quite amusing, like how we thought that the invigilator was a malay when she was chinese, and how she looked like a certain someone from boarding school. But still, I felt more relieved/happy/FREEEEEEE after o levels ended as compared to exams. Even after exams it's like, o levels was the limiting factor to my happiness, even if the concentration of the number of exams over increases, happiness will not increase until os are over.

Went to ngee ann city after os for some survey thingo which was quite fun plus we get paid haha.

Went to choo's house today with peng, yan yu, theron and yao nian. Did all sorts of random stuff and it was really fun, only thing was that I went for lesson after that without dinner, good thing today wasn't so tiring.

For some reason, I feel like I've been fulfilling the materialistic part of my life a lot. Materialistic, not as in just buying stuff..but maybe just all the superficial stuff, results..awards, stuff like that. And I've been doing it all too well, to the extent that it makes it so much more obvious that I'm lacking so much in other aspects, just like the rich and poor divide. Pardon the weird analogy, but right now it's like, you're a power station powering a certain city for many years, and all of a sudden, you realise that there are many other bigger and better power stations out there, you're just like a tiny speck. Kinda feel like a floater, if you know what I mean. And it's kind of ironic how floating stuff like a hot air balloon tend to be empty and follow wherever the wind or whatever external force brings them.

Sometimes you wonder whether you're expecting too much, or you aren't getting enough. It's the little things that count, but sometimes little things fall into the gap between the lift and the door and are lost forever.

darren
Hands are shaking cold,
These hands are meant to hold.